Between 30 and 40

At work, we talked about the sudden passing of a coworker's friend and how it affected him and how it is also something you have to deal with sooner or later. One coworker said: "From 30 onwards, it is likely that the first people in your friend group will die. Some due to cancer, some due to substance abuse and some for no apparent reason". These words have not left my head. He said it like it was a fact. But why shouldn't it be? If you take 100 people, some of them will die pretty young. My friend group is not automatically excluded from statistical probability.

Who will it be? Will it be me? Is it the one with the unhealthiest lifestyle? Could there even be two people? How will it affect me? How will it affect the whole friend group? The more friends I have, the higher the likelihood that someone I know will die between 30 and 40. During this time, most people will not be prepared for it, especially when they haven't had to deal with death before. It can tear friend groups apart. Nothing will ever be like it was before. I deeply fear that.

Right now, everything seems fine. No bad diagnosis, no known illness. But this thought has still cemented itself as a fact inside my head.

I think I should be glad that until now nothing has happened yet. A lot of people pass much earlier in their lives. I should be thankful that I have lived such a good live with my friends without a heartbreaking occurrence. In the end, I must admit that I cannot control what will happen. I can only look after myself and the people who are close to me.